I have to say that if you were a friend of mine from 1996-1998, I'm sorry. I had no idea I was that ridiculous. And, if you knew me from roughly 1996-1998 and you still ARE my friend, you are amazing, and I am so glad you were able to stick it out with me this long! Such DRAMA! I had no idea being a middle-class white girl getting a college education was so harrowing.
A couple of my favorite quotes:
"I got my first paycheck today! $145.16 for 2 weeks of work! Woo hoo!!"
Obviously, I did not have such things as a car payment at this time.
"I saved up about 300 dollars this summer, with that, the $20 grandma sends each month, and my new Discover card, I should have enough money to get by this semester"
This seriously made me laugh out loud, and then want to cry a little, since I still have that Discover card, and on it is still some of the things I 'needed' in order to 'get by' in college.
If I could revisit my 19-year-old self, I would do 2 things:
1. Cut up all my credit cards and forbid myself from using them.
2. Tell myself to get over J, my friend who I was desperately in love with (who did not return the feeling). I am sure my friends put up with much more of me whining about him than I wrote in my journal.
I also found a note I wrote to myself where I talked about the people I had met and had become my first set of friends in the dorm. I wrote about B: "He smokes (yuk!), but he's cool". I laughed out loud again, because I didn't start smoking (not because of B) until I was 20 and continued to do it on an off for the next 10 years. Much of my 20s was centered around cigarettes and drama.
In other packing news, I packed up my bulletin board, the little knick-knacks from the nook above the kitchen sink, and took all the magnets and stuff off of the fridge. Now it all looks so empty. When I look at those voids my heart breaks a little. I'm going to miss this place, I really do love it. Sigh.
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