potent desires

From this week's Freewill Astrology:

AQUARIUS (Jan. 20-Feb. 18): It's the Season of Burning, Churning Yearning. Here are three of the most important things I've ever told you about how to get what you need. (1) If you don't precisely articulate your conscious desires, your unconscious patterns will come true instead. (2) If you want your conscious desires to trump your unconscious patterns, speak or write your conscious desires every day. (3) It's better to have three huge, soaring, potent desires than 25 puny, scrabbling, half-assed desires.

I can barely begin to articulate why this week's horoscope touches my soul.

Since my return from Australia I seem to have been hit full force with the reality that the next stage in my life is rapidly approaching and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Well, I suppose I could move backwards, but the stagnancy I have been experiencing for the last few years definitely has to end. Basically, it's time for me to wrap up this crazy graduate school experience. This means the next year will be filled with insane amount of work, writing, and job hunting. I do not enjoy academic writing, but I am just going to have to get over that, as scary as it seems.

Also, I've realized that I have an amazing support system of family and friends, and I have a full social calendar. I would love to have someone to share that with. It's been years since I had a proper boyfriend, and it's been over a year since I met someone who I felt any chemistry with. I'm still exploring what is keeping me from a fulfilling intimate romantic relationship at the moment.

And I am homeless, technically. I am staying at a friend's house right now but searching for a new place, hopefully moving in Sept 1. Not having MY place with all of MY stuff has been a little disconcerting. With the stresses of Real Life barreling toward me at 1,000,000 miles a minute, not having a place of my own to kind of anchor me down to the world has been affecting me more than I expected.

So I reckon my 3 huge, soaring, potent desires are:
1. a home
2. a boyfriend
3. a Ph.D.

Of course I also have a plethora of half-assed goals, but many of them will get done during the process of attaining the Big Three up there.